Feeling good!!!

It wasn't that long ago when I literally counted the hours on this diet.... it was hard... a struggle..... yikes!! But that has passed. It has become quite natural and easy. I do give GOD the credit for that as well. I am glad I keep losing and grateful for many things related to that.

I haven't had ANY of my day time insulin since May 23rd I believe. My nite time insulin is only 23% of my old do...se, and will have to be lowered again soon when I add exercise.

The middle number for my weight is one I haven't seen in many years. Nine more poulds lost and it will be a tens number that I haven't seen in DECADES!!

My knee hurts less, my back hurts less, I move easier.

I am going to start a free trial membership to Curves the week after Kevin's surgery.

I have lost 14.5 lbs on this diet, 21.5 total since April. Inches are coming off.

Yep... that's the story.

Another new beginning???

I have found some other ways to be creative. Thank you Jesus!! I am totally stuffed and I only had 307 calories total today. I tried to eat more, but this was great. I didn't go hungry.

Tonight I am feeling more positive than I have in a long time. I took fat free cottage cheese, processed in food processor until as creamy as possible. In half of it (two servings) I blended up one serving of strawberries, added some stevia and red wine vinegar. It will be one serving protein, half a fruit, so I will eat on lettuce with a half serving of strawberries for a full meal. To the other half I added a serving of apple sauce that has only apples in it, some stevia, cinnamon and touch of nutmeg. That I will eat with half an apple on the lettuce or possibly even cabbage. I also made taco meat for taco salad. Taco seasoning has sugar in it, so I made my own from scratch. Chili powder, paprika, onion powder, garlic powder, onion flakes, red pepper flakes, cayenne pepper, salt and cumin. Oh, and tiny bit of stevia. Seemed to bring something out in the flavors. Will eat on lettuce with a little salsa to add some added fluid and flavor.

Doing this gave me hope that I can do this. If I can be more creative I can do this. Only 307 calories for the day and not hungry.... AWESOME!!! Just need more water, but it is bed time, so unless I want to PEE all night, I may be short on it today!! Tonight's supper was spring greens, strawberries and my cottage cheese dressing.

This is what 7 lbs of fat looks like

Well, to put it into perspective, I am using butter packages to simulate the weight I'm losing... assuming I am losing fat. I'm losing inches, so believe I am.

Baby steps.. I'm doing the work.......

Well, I did lose another pound. PRAISE GOD!! So, actually lost 7 lbs since last Tuesday, so 7 lbs in 6 days. Can't complain about that. Yet this is difficult.. I really want to see DRASTIC numbers because I'm so big. Should be more impact. That's the attitude I must work on. I continually think of how MUCH I have to lose... not about the changes I AM making. BABY STEPS!!

The drops work. I know that. I took them a couple hours ago, and was really hungry.. I SHOULD be; it was morning. But there is no breakfast on this. I have not eaten, only coffee, and I'm less hungry.

I don't want to take my official measurements until Friday, the morning of the day I go back to the doctor, but I was just curious. So, I just took a couple of measurements of basic spots and have lost inches. I NEED to think about that. Must work on my butter box visual.

I hope and believe today will be great. I need to get it together.

I'M DOING THE WORK!!! Lord, please bring the results. And give me wisdom if I am doing something wrong.

What am I?? A wimp???

Such a difficult day. I have only lost half a pound in two days. To be THIS big, and THIS hungry and to NOT see results on the scale? That sucks. I thought I was positive enough this wouldn't matter... since I know I MUST lose over time.... But it got to me today. But I didn't quit... I stuck with it. Drank more water today.. haven't had enough the last couple of days.. don't know what affect it will have.

Other diets definitely seem like a piece of cake compared to this. EVERYTHING seems like a piece of cake compared to this. OH, Lord, I feel you are in this. Can I do this? Can I really change? Can I have life and have it abundantly? Am I going to see results?? What am I doing wrong? Or is it anything? God you have to help me...  (even more than you OBVIOUSLY are). I don't want to LOSE the affect of this eating  this way for a week has on me. That would seem like a SERIOUS mistake.  Help me figure this out Lord.... without you I can't do this!!

Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.

Something new!!

Trying to be creative. Had fresh tomatoes not so good for eating fresh. I decided to stick them in the food processor, add spices including chili powder, thaw out hamburger patties already cooked, chop them up and add to the tomatoes. Making my own chili. I think that will be really great. Making two servings... it will have the one serving of veggie and meat. But will be warm and tasty. I like meat, don't get me wrong, and I DO have huge full tenderloins in the fridge right now, but I just couldn't bear to eat a solid piece of meat tonight. We'll see how it goes. Oh, and bought HUGE apples!! Yum!!

So, chili ended up being delicious... can't quite eat it all though, getting full. It is spicy. Missing piece was "sweetness", usually sugar is added to tomato products to break some acid, so I am used to the flavor. So, added a little sweetleaf and it hit the spot. Also tried melba toast for first time, and the grissini bread. Not much at all, but gave it a shot.

Chili from fresh tomatoes and ground sirloin.

Bought some crab meat. Going to try to do something with that. I just have a hard time biting into hunks of meat twice a day. Will have to continue to be creative. Gotta plan well for tomorrow... singing at church so am up at 5, not home until 1 or so, so will need plenty of food.

Perspective

I lost half a pound , (was one pound BEFORE I went to the bathroom.. not sure how that happened) but anyway, I felt a little discouraged by that because I'd like to keep losing 1.5-2 a day.  But really, one day doesn't make a difference. I am eating right, it will show up. At the same time I have lost SIX POUNDS IN FOUR DAYS!!! I need to celebrate that. I guess I am just so hungry that it seems forever since I've just been able to eat much... but it has only been 5 days. I assume the hunger will get to be less. Also 6 lbs out of about 120 just doesn't seem like much. But it is!!

I am trying to get butter or margarine packages to make a visual of just what a few pounds LOOKS like. I think that will help. Going to go get tenderloin this morning, so I get that for supper. Will get BIGGER apples... maybe some strawberries. The pork Kevin loves is on sale. Probably make that for him this weekend to freeze so he has it when he wants it. Even though lean, I can't have it.

Lots of housework to do. Trying NOT to think about food, but that is difficult. I am meeting a friend for coffee later, and it will be close to lunch time. It is not as easy anymore to just do that. I have to take fruit or chicken with me so I have something. Ok.. enough whining!!

Change my perspective Lord. I am grateful. I can do this!! Bring me encouragement today Lord in some surprising ways!! Please??? Dumb to ask that. I need to encourage myself. Ok. Now to get on with the day.